5.
belonging to or characteristic of a sovereign or sovereign authority;royal.
6.
having supreme rank, power, or authority.
7.
supreme; preeminent; indisputable
8.
greatest in degree; utmost or extreme.
9.
being above all others in character, importance, excellence, etc.
I love that word! Sovereign. I'm sitting here wondering where I'm going to get thousands of dollars; wondering how I, a girly girl from the suburbs who hates bugs and probably wouldn't go camping if you paid me, am going to live in a tent (with my suitcase) (in Africa) (have I mentioned I'm going to South Africa now?) for three weeks straight.
I'm thinking about all these things that should leave me feeling nervous, anxious, fearful, and uncomfortable, but you know how I feel?
Thrilled. Absolutely thrilled.
I do not have one ounce of fear in me. I'm so excited that I can barely sleep at night (and I still have 39 more nights of sleep to go). I wake up in the middle of the night and can't fall back to sleep because this real, incredible life that God has blessed me with is so much better than anything I can dream of myself.
And the devil tells me I should be worried. Look at your bank account, there's going to be $9 left in there when you pay your tuition on Monday. You have a three-page-long list of things you need to buy plus $1100 for Madagascar still to pay. You only have 3 more pay checks before you leave and that's not going to help you much. You can't do this.
And you know what I do? Laugh in his face.
Because then I get a text asking me to babysit. And another. And someone at work asks me to take two shifts for them. And again. And someone else tells me to pick anything I need and she will buy it for me. And I just can't stop smiling because I know that His power is made perfect in my weakness.
In my inability, He shows up.
God never asks us to do something and then says "now figure it out yourself." He had it all planned out before you even knew what was going on. In fact, He had it all planned out before you even existed.
So I just look at these huge mountains before me and I laugh without fear of the future because God is sovereign even when the rest of the world is spinning out of control.
"Don't tell God how big your mountain is; tell the mountain how big your God is."
I know that I know that I know that my Jesus has never and will never let me down. And I am filled with so much joy knowing that I can choose Him in everything and that I'll never ever have to worry about how things are going to work out because He is so much bigger than me.
So even when it seems impossible, even when you find yourself up against a mountain you can't move, be encouraged that He can. Know that He is sovereign and all you have to do is follow ~ trust in Him and he will make your path straight. Lean on him for all of your strength, trust in Him for all of your needs, know that He will show up and show off exactly when you need him to.
The one who calls you is faithful and He will do it.
1 Thessalonians 5:24
xoxoxoxo
Gianna
woohoo... Gianna, anointed you are!! So blessed to see you blossom. Looking forward to all God is going to do through you in Africa and here back home. Love you sweet one!
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