Eardrums

I'm surprised I still have those.
Blasting music has become a new habit of mine, a bad one, but sometimes necessary because,
well lets just say people in my school don't exactly talk nice. YUCK.
I CANT WAIT FOR SUMMER.

Okay, I'm done with Biology, History, Math, and Spanish.
Oh and gym.
I just have English left.
I really hope I survive.

Today is my baby brother's birthday!!!
Okay well, he's 10.
But he's still my baby brother!
Happy birthday Geno! :)

So far I have actually managed to not go insane.
If I can keep my mental health until tomorrow at 10:45, we'll be good!

Yay.

"Before the mountains were born or you brought forth the whole world, 
from everlasting to everlasting you are God. 
A thousand years in your sight are like a day that has just gone by, 
or like a watch in the night."
Psalm 90:2,4

I love that a lot.
I love how it says "From everlasting to everlasting you are God."
I don't know, it just gave me a lot of peace.
I thought I'd share.


Have a great day everyone! :)

I Never Want to Talk to You Ever Again...

Just kidding.
But for everyone I haven't texted back in the past couple days, I apologize.
I actually have unopened texts in my phone from like two days ago.
Sorry everyone.
Super busy.
But I promise I don't hate you.

Anyways, last night I studied for my Biology final until 1am.
Which was weird cause I almost never study, let alone until 1 in the morning.
A little craziness there.
I'm very grateful for Dr. Tennant teaching us how to "pray through it".
That has helped me a lot lately.
Anddddddddddd, finished Biology for the year with a 94 on my final! Woo!
I just turned in my book and I'm super thrilled to be DONE WITH BIOLOGY.
Its a good feeling. :P

I read this verse this morning:

"so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God." 

That's Ephesians 3:17-19.
I like it a lot.
Let's break it down, shall we? :)


"being rooted and established in love"
So, love should be our everything.
We shouldn't just love on the surface, hug people in the hallway and  be all like "I LOVE YOU!!!! <3 <3 <3" all over facebook.
We should actually be rooted and established in love.
God's love should be our foundation.
And, what kind of love is that?


"How wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know His love that surpasses knowledge"

That sounds like crazy love to me.
Jesus loves us so much we can't even KNOW how much. That's a lot.


And, "that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God."
He has so much for you.
He has crazy plans for us, and all He asks is that we love (really love) who He loves.
We can do that right?

Love someone today :)

Losing My Mind Update.

Hi everyone.
I am typing this in a completely sane mind, but its only 2nd period so we'll see.

Since my last post, I studied til 11:30ish.
Got hungry.
Ate some ham.
Remembered fetal pigs...
Almost puked.
Wanted to write in my journal,
Realized my journal is in my Mexico binder... which I left at church on wednesday.
Nice!

Went on my email and read all my Daily Bible Verses from Biblegateway.com.

They really encouraged me so I thought I'd share them. I put the Spanish too! :)

Psalm 130:17-18
Salmos 130:17-18


Psalm 56:4
Salmos 56:4


1 Thessalonians 4:16-17
1 Tesalonicenses 4:16-17


Revelation 21:2-4
Apocalipsis 21:2-4 



Hebrews 9:28

Hebreos 9:28

For some reason that last link wont let me change it to blue?
Blogger spell check is telling me I spelled those wrong, guess it doesn't speak Spanish.

PS, my Biology test wasnt THAT bad. There were only 17 dead pigs instead of 50.
Just thought I'd clear that up.

Have a super fantastic day everyone!

Summer...... maybe.

Okay, I'm really excited for summer... if I can keep my sanity until then.
I only have 3.5 days of school left and I swear it is going to be the death of me.
Or at least my mental well-being.

My mood right now is a mixture of wanting to rip my hair out and wanting to jump for joy in excitement..

Here's my schedule:

Friday- 100 point Biology test. Gym final I lost my study guide for, cool.
Monday- Biology final. Biology essay thing due. (Why in the world we would have a test the day before our final and essayish thing due the day of.... is beyond me.) History final.
Tuesday- Math final. Spanish final. Honors Software for Personal Computing (why is that even a class) final.
Wednesday- English final.

My brain is not really sure if it wants to scream, cry, sleep, spaz, or stop working,
so I'm just really trying to stay sane,
And I'm managing so far (but barely hanging on) and I have no idea how there are people in 11th grade and beyond right now who are still alive.
I officially admire.... everyone.

But SUMMER, if I don't lose my sanity before then, I'm super excited for summer oh my.
Ohio, Mexico, Myrtle Beach.
So far travel itinerary.
I really enjoy getting out of Pennsylvania.
Like, it's my favorite thing to do.

And of course if anyone reading this knows anything about me at all they should know I LOVE SAN LUIS MEXICO.
Ask me about it and I'll tell you everything you ever wanted to know about the two weeks I've spent there.

And babysitting, lots of babysitting, text me or email me or message me if you want your children babysat!
And swimming, and sleeping, and doing nothing, and not getting up at 5am, and not doing Biology work, and not doing Math work, and not writing English essays, and eating popsicles, and going to Mexico, and going to church, and going to Mexico, and going to Mexico.

Summer is only like what, 6 days from now? (For me anyway)
Oh, please everyone pray that I'm still alive then, thanks.

My dog is crying in her sleep right now.
I bet I'll do that tonight.

Okay, I'm sorry for this ranting blog post about nothing in particular, thank you everyone for reading and now I have to go study because tomorrow, first period (aka 7:30am) I will walk into a room with 50 dead pigs cut open and pointers in them and have to identify all their organs and their functions.

Goodnight world.

Thinkin'.

So this picture makes me cry.
This is from a story that was in the newspaper two years ago. You can read it here.

And I was thinking, (hence the title), about soldiers.
Cause yesterday was memorial day.
And a lot of the time, I don't really think about soldiers.
I guess its easy to forget that they are far away fighting for our lives.

But I remembered reading this story, and like, seriously guys.
These people have to leave their families for our freedom? Us?

That's crazy.
Basically this picture says it all.

A lot of you reading this have been to Mexico, right? If not you can envision. (is that a word?)
It's like, you've been loving these kids all week and you know you have to leave soon.
You're holding their hand DREADING when you have to let go.

Or if you're a parent, you can imagine it.

Look at that guy.
Imagine how he feels.

That's his baby.

He has to let go soon, and he doesn't even know if he'll ever be back.

We've never met that guy and we probably never will,
but he gave up everything for us.

That is insane.

So just remember, (and it doesn't have to be memorial day to remember),
That there are guys giving up their lives for us everyday.

Pray for them, and thank them every chance you get.
Cause that's incredible.

Pregnant...?

Okay, so yesterday when I made my facebook status "Goin to love some kids :)"
I didnt know I was "Goin to fall in love with some kids."
But I kinda figured it out when I looked in the window and saw tables full of kids and had to stop myself from crying I was so excited to go in and see them.

Wait, I'm getting ahead of myself. Let me start from the beginning.
Last night about.. 15 or so people from my youth group/church went to this place called Lazarus Tomb.
What's that? Well to be perfectly honest with you I'm not exactly sure.
But from what I could figure out, (and there are people who could tell you way more about this than I can) it's a Christian coffee house. Says Google.
But anyways, we went there to do an outreach to a bunch of kids.

So okay, this place is in Arnold, PA. Have you ever been to Arnold? Have you ever even heard of Arnold? I havent. Until last night.
So our first impression of Arnold is this: we drive in and see the whole "Welcome to Arnold" sign, and there's a paper up on a telephone pole that says "MURDERED" with a picture of a little boy under it and "$10,000 REWARD".
Hmmmm.

So, theres six of us in the hot (hot hot hot hot) van, and we pull up and I'm not sure if I wanna jump out and get some fresh air or stay in cause I might get murdered. Haha.

But we come up to the door, and there are maybe 4 or 5 tables FILLED with kids.
And like I said I was SO excited.
In a way it kinda reminded me of pulling up to the orphanage in San Luis.

So we go in, and they're shouting things as soon as we walk through the door. Those kids dont hold back!
"Are you mixed?" "Is your dad black, or is your mom black? ...No? SHE AINT MIXED."
"How old are you?" "Do you have a boyfriend?" "Whats your name?" "Are you married?" "Are you pregnant?"
................................. pregnant?

Anyways, there were only three of us girls (besides leaders) and Pastor Anthony said to go sit with the kids, so naturally, we went to the girls table hahaha.
Right away they claimed who was gonna sit with them, haha.
"Who wants me to sit by them!?" "ME!" "ME!" Fun stuff.

So they got the kids into a game and they won twizzlers.
And this was like, a tough crowd! We had to go all out to keep their attention!

So Pastor Anthony does the Bible skit, in modern form, with some of us and some kids.
That was a hit.
He asked them some questions and talked about how God wants all of us, etc, then he said that he wanted everyone to repeat the prayer after him.

And, my gosh. It wasnt like, at church whisper what he says and wonder if someone hears you.
They YELLED the prayer! Loud and proud!
That was one of my favorite parts of the night.

Then.. we did the shark song.
If you're in incline you know what I'm talking about.
Pastor Anthony was on stage and two other guys and me. (goodbye comfort zone.)
At the part where it goes "Shark attack!" .... yeah lets just say... big pile of kids, we didnt do that part again. :)

And then they said, all the kids ten and under go into the back room to eat. The littlest boy grabbed my hand so I went back with him.
One kid was talking to me, and I couldnt really make out what he was saying but I did hear "...and then he beat me up in the street..."
These poor beautiful kids.
I ended up at a table with the youngest boy and the youngest girl! I was excited.
I got them talking about their favorite animals and favorite colors and all their siblings and how the little girl didnt like the pepper things on her pizza and whatever else they could possibly say even though I didn't understand half of it.
They seemed to be content with me smiling and saying "Really! Wow, that's SO cool."

After most of the kids had left, there were four little boys still there. They were brothers. The ones in the picture.
Someone put some music on and they wanted to dance!
So a little boy with a blue shirt and killer smile grabs my hands and I'm pretty sure we spun in a circle for 20 minutes.
I was so dizzy but that was okay because I could tell he loved the attention and I loved giving it.
When we had to leave he kept hugging me and giving me high fives and waving.
It was so sweet.

So anyways, last night was incredible and I loved it and I cant wait to go back and see them again!
It was such a blessing to me and I hope we blessed them somehow.

Have a beautiful day everyone :)

Make a Memory.

On Sunday I wasn't feeling all that great. My back hurt and my head hurt. I took medicine. It helped.
Then I was just tired.
So, I'm laying on the couch watching some Hallmark movie (I love Hallmark movies.)
And my mom had to go take my sister to her friends house so I had to watch Mario.
He reeeeeeeeeeally wanted me to come outside so he could ride his bike on the street (he's not allowed to go by himself.)
I reeeeeeeeeeeeeally wanted to lay on the couch and finish the movie.
My mom told me I have to go out.
So I put on my jacket and went outside all mad. (Cute, I know.)
Then it starts raining. Great. Mario, time to go inside and watch a movie!

But then my mom said something that got me.
I guess she knew I wanted to lay on the couch and watch the movie and the next movie and the next movie.
She said, "Make a memory."

That. Hit me. I always always wonder if he'll remember things some day.
I always wonder that about kids.
I remember some things from when I was little, but only a few memories.
So I always hope that kids will remember like... stuff we do.
And I always wonder what makes something so special you remember it.

So Mario, "Awwww. Okay Gianna." is walking into the house.
And then I was like, Mario hurry up get your play clothes on lets go play in the rain!
REALLY!?!?!?!
Yeah!
OKAY! CAN I WEAR MY BATHING SUIT!?
......If you really want to! But you have to wear a jacket.
OKAY GIANNA!
Okay Mario!
Are you gonna wear your bathing suit?
No but you can.
Okay!
Okay get dressed hurry!!

So he runs out of his room in a tshirt and his bathing suit and announces "I don't have underwear on."
Adorable.
Since I told him "You have to wear a jacket so you wont get pneumonia" he picks this big puffy red power rangers winter coat.
So he's wearing this big puffy red coat and his swim trunks. He looked so funny. I wish I took a picture.
I put on jeans and a sweatshirt and a jacket and we ran outside. After the first puddle I figured I should probably roll my jeans up. (It was a lost cause, by the time we were done I was soaked.)

So we ran down the street holding hands and jumping in every puddle.
When we came to one of those drain things, he thought it was really funny to kick the water into the drain.
He had so much fun.
We walked down our street, back, down another street, back, down our street again, down another street, back, down the driveway, back, down the street, etc.
He let go of my hand to jump in a big puddle but then ran back saying "I missed your hand."
On our street he goes, "You're the best sister I ever had."

Then we're walking down this hill cause there's a drain at the bottom and he wanted to kick water into it.
He pulls on my arm, I bend over, and he gives me a kiss.

Then we come home, and he sees a BIG puddle at the bottom of our driveway we just HAVE to jump in.
We're running down the driveway laughing and he screams "This is the best day EVER!"

We put two leaves in the big puddle he found and he decided they were boats and we were gonna have a race.
His won, of course. :)

Then somehow, he switched the game to "all the leaves are our family."
One leaf was Daddy, one leaf was Mommy, one leaf was Mia, etc.
He got the leaf that was "me" and put a really tiny leaf on top of it and told me I was babysitting. Hahaha.

He asked me, "Do you wanna go inside now?"
"We can stay out here as long as you want."
"REALLY!??"

So we ended up being outside for like an hour, then came back in got all dry and I made him hot tea.

I really really hope he remembers that day.
I know I will forever.

And know what, after that I felt a lot better.

So I learned a lesson, and I thought I'd share it with you.
Next time you're laying there doing nothing for no reason, find someone and make a memory :)

Have a great day everyone!